Wednesday, August 29, 2007
i dont really want to rmb what happened ytd night. its juz for kh and me to know and my parents and my aunt and God. some
onethree chided me. my dad, mum and kh. i really am trying.
crying too perhaps. this person didnt even seem to apologise after this person did that to me. the door thingy. =( or maybe i was too tired to care. i want to say things, but both my daddy and kh say that i wont understand how this person feels. i cant say its unfair. coz my life wasnt even fair in the first place. i feel tired. hated. dao-ed. disgusted. sicken-ed. tragic. the only reason why i still live here is because...i just feel bad and guilty. god gave me life, but i want to ruin it. its horrible. he will never forgive me. i really feel very tired, not physically, but spiritually. nobody ever wants to help me. they say i dont know how that person is feeling, but do they actually know what
I am feeling? being an only child is hard. i dont have anybody to cry to, anybody to trust in the truth. well,
somebody. which is me,my,i and myself. get it?
i feel lethargic. sometimes i feel that physical torture is better than mental torture. isnt it! xD laughs at
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