Wednesday, August 29, 2007
i wish i could be emo. i wish i could cry. sometimes i feel i dont belong. sometimes i feel weak, but i juz cant do it in front of my mum. really not in front of her. its just that too many tears have fallen that i no longer have anymore. sometimes i wish i could FEEL instead of being hardened up inside so that i can hide my true feelings. yes, i do over react, but you just dont know how hard this thing is. one you will not experience. one you will not understand. one you will not cry yourself to sleep everyday.
this is really dead. but i dont care. i want to be able to feel and love again. my reflections. my thots. are they helping me or are they causing trouble??????
=(((((
today has been a sad day. ytd too. forgive me for not showing any sense of emotion. whatever. i havent done anything and its 10 pm already. horriiiid me.=(
